The cliché of all clichés: Life is Hard.
It’s tempting to be wooed by this wildly oversimplified declaration, especially now. Especially when your husband who just got through battling for his life gets handed another challenge. Especially when you find out your position at work has been terminated and you feel you are suspended in an abyss waiting for what comes next. Especially when everything in your life feels like it is a vertical trek up upward, in the dark …in stilettos...and a really tight skirt. You might look damn good, but it is not comfortable.
Change is uncomfortable. That’s really what it comes down to, isn’t it? Change. It cannot be escaped. We all buzz around, plowing through our days, busying ourselves, doing our doings, and building a nice little cozy nest. And then one day we get home from the grocery store and there are nine tumors growing in our husband’s chest. Or we are woken up in the middle of the night by a distressed pug, suddenly in pain with an injured leg.
Last night as I sat helplessly trying to help ease my dog’s upset, I just felt scared. I was by myself, and I didn’t know what to do. He wasn’t hurt badly enough to take him to urgent care, but he was uncomfortable enough to make me uneasy. So what could we do? We sat with it. We sat with it and felt bad (mind you while our other pug snored away obliviously). I cried and felt badly and he looked at me, and time passed. Eventually we both fell asleep, the night gave way, and in the light everything felt a lot less scary.
The world begins anew each day. Isn’t that amazing?! I mean, really. Darkness blankets us all, silently, and in that mysterious moment of rest, everything is re-created. Clouds so heavy around our hearts wane with a passing day. You just have to accept the change in weather. Sit with it, look at it…until the day passes. Time will heal.
So instead of stating the obvious – yes, life is hard - turn your heart up to the sky, open your arms and let the rain hit your face. It’s not so bad. You’ll dry; I promise.
Tuesday, October 20
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3 comments:
What a privilege to be your first comment on your beautifully written first post.
I think it's actually somewhat comforting to know that with all the people in the world, none of us can escape challenges and change and the craziness of the sheer fact that life is completely unpredictable. Do all you want to plan for the future, but be ready at all times for it to not go as planned.
The key is to go with the flow. Laugh in the face of adversity. Move forward. Keep going. And keep laughing. Seriously, what is the alternative?
You are loved, Leah.
You ARE love, Leah.
Oh, apparently, I am not even close to being your first comment. Darn.
Would have been if the evil internet gods had not intruded.
:)
After reading your blog I thought: What a gift you bring to the world!
The ability to mirror back everything we have felt and are feeling through your prose. It is so comforting, validating and so inclusive... reflecting this world experience we all share.
Not everyone can do this with such grace, raw honesty and courage in the face of adversity. But you can. And you do for all to benefit.
Thank you, my princess, for sharing this gift. Bravo! I am so proud! I look forward to finding zen with you.
Love you to tears,
Dado
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