The Waiting Game

Sometimes life feels like a holding tank. Like the end of an exhale - stale, still, suspended. A waiting game.

I have found myself here time and again - in this waiting room - in a state of repose, anticipation, contemplation. Waiting for inspiration, recognition, change. The waiting can take on a life of its own. It's funny the places our minds go when given leeway - spinning webs, creating stories, worlds existing only within the confines of our interior, subsisting off thoughts we pluck from the skies of our imagination.

Why do we find ourselves here? Idle. Motionless. Stuck. It seems this paralysis of spirit is born from uncertainty and perhaps fear. It comes when we are unclear, apprehensive, when we don't know what we want.

Because the truth is this:

Everything in our lives. Every little thing. Everything we are and everything we long for. Everything we want and cannot have. Everything we have and do not want. Everything. All of it is our creation. We do get what we want. We get exactly what we want.

And so, when we find ourselves waiting, it is an excuse for inaction. It is powerless wanting. It is renouncement of our genius, our potential, our creativity.

Just as you created your way into this hole, you can create your way out of it. Life is never a waiting game when you realize you are the game maker. The creator. If you wait for the perfect time - the perfect opportunity - it will never come. The perfect time is one-foot-in-front-of-the-other-right-fucking-now. And if you find yourself unable to move one way, take a step in the opposite direction. But do not stand still, stagnant, powerless.

Life is not meant to be difficult. I am beginning to realize that there is actually really nothing to figure out at all. There is just living fully in this moment and loving it for exactly what it is.

The first step to freeing yourself from the wait is to love where you are. The second is to realize that you are the one who got yourself there.

So if you're tired of waiting, then get out of the room and declare: Game Over.