Spill Your Tainted Heart

We are all imperfect. We walk around this world in our own little orbits, taking things in, filtering them through our little built-in perfunctory sorter-outer that is shaped by our temperament, our parents, our past experiences, our egos; and then we spill them out into the universe and onto other people who take them through their own little filter sorter-outer and on and on and on we go. Information is lost, feelings are misinterpreted, thoughts misconceived, beliefs misconstrued, and things can get really messy.

How do we pour our hearts to one another without it getting all muddied up? How do we get back to what is true and pure and good, that virgin untainted center, unaffected by the pollution of life’s circumstances? It seems that somewhere along the way we start taking things with us, collecting baggage from heartache, disappointment, grief. We get older, our load gets heavier, and soon we can’t even remember what it was we threw onto our backs years ago; it is buried.

I don’t know why we do this – why we carry things with us, why we are unable to forget, unable to start anew each day and live in the moment. We are shaped by our experiences. We are fundamentally changed; we create our little orbits and we lose a crucial connection to what life is all about: Love. Connectedness. We are all the same – you and I, those we don’t know, those we don’t like and even the things we fear. Everything at heart follows the same beat of life pulsing beneath the distractions we create and the baggage we carry.

Indeed, we are all imperfect. And it’s okay. Go ahead and walk around in your little orbit. Spill your tainted heart into the universe. Carry your load. But take a look at what you’re holding onto. If you can’t remember why it’s there or what good it’s doing weighing heavy upon you, put it down. Lighten up. Clear out your filter sorter-outer. Love, connectedness, and the common beat of life will be much easier to notice without all the mess.